written by Azra Tabassum (via reasonandfaith)
Say it. That when I was raking the dead leaves into a pile of letting go in the front yard, your left hand was still shaking from gripping the steering wheel like a lifeline that time we rode home in your car and I was crying. Say it. Say you weren’t the one who smashed all the eggs in the kitchen…
I had the worst night I think that I’ve ever had at my job tonight. It started with my manager cutting every 4 pm person there except for me. Then i ran everyone else’s food for two hours and got stiffed on five checks in a row (I was Togo I’m not a shitty server I swear) then I overheard my managers making fun of me, and all of my friends went to a concert without me while my boy person thing is in Germany for two weeks with no form of contact whatsoever really. I know it seems like I’m just being whiney but idk I feel defeated as fuck right now. I cried in the back for 20 minutes before someone had to tell my fucking manager to send me home bc everyone was so worried. At 130 in the fucking morning. I legit have never cried in front of anyone there. Being alone is a sobering experience. I just want to sleep forever ok goodnight
New townhouse, new job, the boyfriend is in Germany for two weeks and my family is possibly moving to New Mexico? All of this within the last three days. Am I living someone else’s life right now orrrrr?